Wow! What a difference a week makes...at times I have felt like I was undergoing some sort of test in the last week. By the way - let me just start by saying it is really crazy how little faith I have when the going gets tough. Really really wimpy. I think I have the mustard seed size covered though, so I clinged to that and watched God work. I have discovered that dealing with rejection is not really something I do well.....but, I survived. And more importantly Esther survived - and I believe I have passed her test. I think I am able to resume my position in the family as Momma. Sorry Noel - no more Mr. Mom, but thanks for doing such a great job:)
Esther has let me in her little heart more each day. Today I got to be the one to give her a bottle before bed and kiss her goodnight as her sweet eyes were closing. What a change from just a few days ago when she would scream loudly if I came near her - especially at bedtime.
It is truly a gift to fulfill my calling as a Mother. When the days get long with my kids after we get home - I will look back and remember to celebrate this gift.
We had our consulate appointment today. All paperwork was in order and our VISA for Esther will be ready tomorrow afternoon. We fly out of Guangzhou Thursday at noon. We are so excited to see the boys!!! So thankful for my sister, Noel's parents, and friends and family that have entertained them!
God has once again shown up big. This is our last night in China. We have all learned and loved much here. Think I will rest well tonight and fall asleep with praise on my lips for the way the Lord has provided!
This is something I wrote the other day - it sums up my experience with my daughter. I hope the realness of the last 2 weeks will in someway shed light for another Momma -do not lose hope - the day is coming.
You turned away
Too much to bear
Too painful to seek comfort
Where you had lost
All so different
Longing for familiar
But with time, healing comes
Your heart softens
Prayers are lifted...many
And our God is BIG
It is as though He has whispered to you
The winds of peace pass over us
You awaken like the sunrise with a smile
Your mourning turns into dancing
Your JOY exudes in song
And when I am out of your sight I hear your voice
You call me...
Momma
Esther has let me in her little heart more each day. Today I got to be the one to give her a bottle before bed and kiss her goodnight as her sweet eyes were closing. What a change from just a few days ago when she would scream loudly if I came near her - especially at bedtime.
It is truly a gift to fulfill my calling as a Mother. When the days get long with my kids after we get home - I will look back and remember to celebrate this gift.
We had our consulate appointment today. All paperwork was in order and our VISA for Esther will be ready tomorrow afternoon. We fly out of Guangzhou Thursday at noon. We are so excited to see the boys!!! So thankful for my sister, Noel's parents, and friends and family that have entertained them!
God has once again shown up big. This is our last night in China. We have all learned and loved much here. Think I will rest well tonight and fall asleep with praise on my lips for the way the Lord has provided!
This is something I wrote the other day - it sums up my experience with my daughter. I hope the realness of the last 2 weeks will in someway shed light for another Momma -do not lose hope - the day is coming.
You turned away
Too much to bear
Too painful to seek comfort
Where you had lost
All so different
Longing for familiar
But with time, healing comes
Your heart softens
Prayers are lifted...many
And our God is BIG
It is as though He has whispered to you
The winds of peace pass over us
You awaken like the sunrise with a smile
Your mourning turns into dancing
Your JOY exudes in song
And when I am out of your sight I hear your voice
You call me...
Momma
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